maybe it can bring you a smile too

i was having a rough day when i posted last and i stumbled upon a quote that brightened my day and made me approach life a little differently.

"people are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered. love them anyway.
if you do good, people may accuse you of selfish motives. do good anyway.
if you are successful. you may win false friends and true enemies. succeed
anyway. the good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. do good anway.
what you spend years building may be destroyed overnight, build anway.
people who really want help may attack you if you help them. help them
anyway. give the world the best you have and you may get hurt. give the
world your best anyway."[mother theresa]

one day

the small drops of wetness fall down my face
leaving a trace of warmth as they fall.
i dont know why they are there, but they
wont go away.
like the unexplained sadness the burdens me,
the tears remain.
one day-- like the blooming flowers
embracing the sunshine after a harsh winter
--my tears will be replaced with happiness
a day full of smiles and laughter.
one day it will come.
i can only hope that day is near.

let the sand man take over

i'm so unbelieveably exhausted. all i want to do is curl up under the blankets next to a certain someone and just sleep until my hearts content. i had to write a paper tuesday night only to find out wednesday that i have to rewrite the whole thing and instead of working on a little bit last night i played card games and watched osmosis jones so now i have to write it all tonight. super fun. i just want it to be summer. im tired and ovewhelmed and need another break. spring break wasnt long enough.

dance your worries away..

sometimes when i feel overwhelmed or sad i dance. i get onto pandora, find something that can make me smile, and dance my heart out in front of my open window in the living room. when im jumping around and not caring about anything at that moment but the music it feels good. i lose myself in the lyrics and the rhythm and forget about everything thats bothering me.

number one enemy

and that enemy would be procrastination. i've been sitting at home since around 2:45 trying to write a paper thats due tomorrow...terrible i know. but its just a first draft so that gives me some leeway. i couln't tell you what i have been doing all this time but definietly not my paper. i hate days like this. its my fault that i waited so long but i just can't seem to get started.

i feel like thats a big issue with me this semester which is a problem. there are so many things that need to be done and i just cant seem to get anything accomplished. school has been a major stress because i'm on academic probabition and have to do well. its not as though i don't want to, i just let myself get too caught up with other things and i can't let myself focus on what's important.

on a lighter note, after some ups and major downs, me and that certain someone seem to being doing just dandy. we spent most of spring break together doing a whole lot of nothing and enjoying the free time we had. it was nice. i feel like we havent caught a break and this past week was just nice to be together. i hope i dont jinx anything by saying all that but i just needed to put it out there how happy ive been because i feel like most people only see the bad that goes on between us and then they think that he and i shouldn't be together but i'm experienceing it first hand, not them, and the way he makes me feel is like no one else before. i'm so happy with him, even though he is part of my distraction, he knows the situation i am in and tries to help as much as he can from pulling all nighters to spending hours at the library with me.

only time will tell from here what's going to happen...